Megan Fox: Why I ‘Carry a Lot of Guilt’ as a Mom
Now, the mom of two under two — Bodhi Ransom, 4 months, and Noah Shannon, 21 months — is trying to balance raising both boys. Despite her best efforts, the hands-on mom can’t help but feel torn in two directions.
“As a mom it’s hard because I don’t feel like I’m ever giving either one of them 100 percent of my attention or 100 percent of myself, so I carry a lot of guilt,” the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles star tells Parents magazine.
“Do they each understand how special they are and how much I love them? And are they understanding that they’re unique? It’s hard to make each one feel like an individual when you have to raise them together and manage them together all of the time.”
The actress has decided to steer both of her sons clear of cartoons and, instead of turning to television, tries to “incorporate Noah into the process” of caring for his baby brother.
“It’s total chaos, obviously. Before you have kids you really do not understand how much work it is and how consuming it is,” Fox says. “It’s really hard to manage because I also don’t let them watch TV. It’s not like I’m going to sit Noah in front of the television so I can take care of Bodhi.”
Despite her ban on technology — her goal is “no computers, no cell phones until at least 8th grade” — Fox isn’t against letting them enjoy family-friendly flicks. “Movies are so nostalgic and they can remind us of these amazing times in our childhood,” she explains.
Double duty parenthood has its challenges, but Fox is hopeful her hard work will pay off and that the boys will share a strong bond.
“I’m excited for the future, to see them be brothers and be best friends and I know that there’s gonna be lots of fighting, but there’s also gonna be lots of hugs and kisses,” she says.
As for her own future? Fox is happy to lighten her work load for the sake of her family. “I have to make one movie a year because I have to invest in their future and I have to be able to pay their way through college and be able to provide for them,” she explains. “It’s all about trying to spend as little time away from my kids as possible.”
– Anya Leon